A LIttle Smile On Your Face

You have always had the sweetest smile on earth. The welcoming heart, the warm eyes and nice hugs and kisses. Now, all GONE. All left was just the fierce eyebrows. We dont ask for anything more than just a smile, laugh and happiness. You used to spend time with me by going for a swim. Now everything that i do doesnt fit what you like. Every single thing with flaws. Everyday with tears holding back not to drop. May i ask why? Is it because of the disease or is it because of it is suppose to happen to every woman in the world? I would love to live everyday without the fear of you getting angry or mad at us. I would love to live everyday like other teenagers. I understand you, your way. But sometimes, all i need is a little praise here and there and also advices. What am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you? Where did SHE go? Yeah, me with all my jokes and laughs. But why can't you smile just a little bit? Definitely will brighten your face. I really, badly missed you so much. Now i know how important it is to cherish every second you have with the loved ones. Damn it, i really miss you. Why are you shouting shrieking and so on? Are you afraid of not giving us enough advices and teaching us to be a human? You did very well in shaping us into someone in the world. You are the greatest and toughest person ive ever met. You gave me the strength to every single thing i do. Maybe, it is irreversable.