being loved

hey, there's a guy ive known for a while, we just slightly knew each other, barely knew backgrounds. in short, not so close. so, we've been in touched a few days back. he's been sweet to me. one day, he said he was searching for a turtle. so i said i wanted one. he said, if i want the turtle, i have to take the master. it means, i have to take him, as in, be his. if you're talking about loving a guy or falling in love with a guy sincerely, i am not that interested. from the last relationship ive had with this one guy, im broken hearted. we cant go on bcause of certain reasons. but his the first and the last(currently) im seriously in love with. so, after the case, i just liked guys, mcmmcm tu jekk. tk serious pun. whatever, but this guy is serious. and i have one weakness i cant overcome. compassion for people even he's a criminal. get it? i dont have the guts to turn him down. i just cant. too pathetic. afi said, just say no if you're not interested. how can i? i made a plan(afi kasi 2stars jek :( -not brilliant enough). just accept. in case if he hurt me, or perverted, i dont care, i wont be hurt. i wont love him like i loved the last guy ive loved.but, i wont hurt him in return. so, FAIR AND SQUARE. seriously, i dont know, i dont have any clue, if his sincere or he's not. i gotta be particularly careful so i wont fall for him for real. im so sorry for being so insincere, but the last relationship taught me well enough not to hurt myself again. not anymore. im not going to go through the same thing. not again. i cant. im so sorry, but youve gotta understand me. im hurt severe enough, and the wound is not well yet.

mohd asyraf nor ridzuan,

im so sorry.