pain

that's the reason why ive told myself many times before,

'watch where you go, look out before you fall'

as usual i wouldnt want to listen. ive been asking myself over and over,

"do you really want to go on, take the risks and endure whatever pains that hurt you?"

yeah, sure. i am going to stand for what i chose.
so this is what i got.
PAIN. so much pain that i felt useless.
so much pain that i felt helpless.
so much pain i wanna STOP.
but when there's pain, means there's effort.

this is not diyana ive known.
in certain cases, when you stop fighting,
doesnt mean that youre giving up,
it means, you are giving time for the cuts to heal.

how?

how am i gonna face everyday
when i wake up i feel so strong to go fighting,
but actually the cuts and the broken bones are not healed yet?


please, im begging you thousand times please,

let me be sure of what im going through.
dont let me go fighting in the battlefield,
bleeding and breaking
when there's nothing to be fought off?