faking to not hurt

faking the smiles and the laughs, acting like everything's ok, is much much more hurtful than it sounds. to still believe and lying to myself,

i think ; it is fine.

at least it looks perfect from outside. i guess both of us have the same thoughts towards each other.

i wanna ask,,
WHY? WHY? WHY?

i wanna keep on having faith. even though you still keep on tearing the cuts you've made. thinking that i am ok. you're WRONG. i will never be. i am just wearing a MASK.

why can't you give a chance,
when you've had one?

confused in my own thoughts, i still believe.